Cottonwood by R Lee Smith
General Genres & Darkness Level - Basic info & Content
Darkness Level 5, Alien Nookie, Dystopian, Sci-Fi, Stand Alone.
Tropes & Triggers - Although I try my hardest not to include any spoilers, these tags may give away a little more of the story. If you don't want to risk the possibility of knowing a wee bit extra about the type of content and aren't too bothered anout exact tropes then don't click here đ
Abused Hero, Captivity, Forbidden, Friends to Lovers, Human & Alien Kinky Shit, Non Humanoid Aliens, Slow Burn, Strong AF Heroine, Ugly Cried, Unusual Ding-Dong
Darkness Level – 5 out of 6
Pretty damn dark and triggering, woohoo!
My Rating is 5 Stars
Author: R Lee Smith
Series or Standalone: Stand Alone
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Blurb
They never meant to come to Earth. They were never allowed to leave…
Welcome to Cottonwood.
Excerpt:
âYou should have heard it, Kate. It was subtle, but it wasnât my imagination. The guy spent five hours essentially telling us that the aliens are retarded.â
âOh come on.â
âNot in so many words, butâhang on.â Sarah moved the paz to her other hand so that she could lay her right arm over Faginâs back, since he was being insistent about it. âBut he just really drilled it in,â she continued, resigned. âOver and over, really soft and gentle. âTheyâre not smart, they donât take care of themselves, they need to be controlled.ââ
Kateâs tiny image on the screen flickered as she shifted her own paz and had trouble restabilizing. The two werenât exactly compatible anymore. She really needed to get a new one. âSo? Maybe they do.â
âAnd maybe they donât. Kate!â she said, trying to laugh through her frustration. âThese people came to us in a spaceship! A planet full of stupid layabouts does not master intergalactic space travel!â
Kateâs image flickered again and snapped to black. She didnât need it. She could hear the distraction in Kateâs voice, and the tight Iâm-pretending-Iâm-not-angry tone that had been her default setting pretty much since Sarah told her she was really moving to Cottonwood. âOkay, so the guy whoâs been studying them for twenty years is wrong and Sarah Fowler, who hasnât even met one yet, is right. Congratulations. Youâre that good.â
Sarah felt herself blush. âIt didnât sound right, thatâs all Iâm saying. Some of the little things he said just…just really got to me.â
âLike what?â Kate asked, sounding concerned now and not big-sister patronizing.
âLikeâŚLike he said that if their claspers came off, theyâd die.â
A short pause. âWhat are claspers?â
âOh, thatâs not the point, theyâre like tiny little extra arms that smell things. The point is, how many aliens had to lose their claspers and die without having any otherâŚWhatâs the word I want? Variables?â
Kate was quiet for a while. The picture tried to come back a few times, showing Sarah glimpses of her sister through a haze of multi-colored distortion. âThese guys are professionals, Sarah. Itâs their job to make connections that people like us miss.â
âYeah, but how did so many aliens lose their claspers in the first place, thatâs what I really want toââ
âDid your house come with a phone?â
âHuh? Um, yeah.â She twisted to look up at it, clinging to the wall like a shiny, black beetle. âBut itâs patched into the IBI switchboard. I canât figure out how to get a line outside the village. I could look it up in the manual, butââ She laughed. ââIâm kind of manualed-out. I had to set everything, you have no idea. All the faucets are TruTouch. Who the heck even knows off-hand how many degrees they like their shower? Or their drinking water? Plus, I got my Fahrenheit and my Celsius screwed up and practically steamed-cooked my face off the first time IâŚWhy?â She checked the pazâs signal, but it looked good. âCanât you hear me okay?â
âI hear you. I was just curious. So this is your own paz?â
âYeah,â said Sarah, still trying to see where this was going. âBut they scanned it in through the company server when I got here. You know. So I canât take pictures or blog about company policy or stuff. They said it wouldnât affect my performance. I mean, I can barely see you, butââ
âThatâs normal for the fossil youâre using,â Kate agreed. In a new, hearty voice, she added, âTruTouch faucets, those are awesome!â
My Review Of Cottonwood by R Lee Smith
There are some brilliant authors out there and I go to each of them depending on what I want to feel. But when I need to immerse myself completely in another world and forget that mine even exists, I go to R Lee Smith.
When I want to really feel a book deep down in my soul and fall in love with it’s characters, I go to R Lee Smith.
When I wan to experience something Iâve never experienced before, I go to R Lee Smith.
When I want to have my heart ripped out, beaten and then returned to me as a shadow of its former self, I go to R Lee Smith.
She is not the kind of author to fill you with temporary fluffiness, but instead, the kind that makes you think and discover dark corners of your mind that you didnât know were even there.
This book was soul destroyingly beautiful (if you can wrap your head around that, well done, lol). Â
It was deep and so much more than I thought it was going to be (I, of course, should have known better. It is R Lee Smith after all).
SARAH
This is a woman with a pure and innocent soul. She gets a job working for the IBI, who are meant to be helping the aliens integrate. Helping them be safe and find their own way on our planet.
Sarah goes into this thinking that she can help make a difference but is disgusted by what she sees.Â
Hidden from the outside world is what is basically a concentration camp.
These aliens, referred to as âBugsâ, are treated so badly, it is a wonder they have survived at all in the last 20 years since arriving accidentally on our planet.
Sarah wants to help them but, not surprisingly, is met with hostility and aggression. They donât trust her.
Except for one male. Sanford.Â
The things Sarah does while trying to help as many as she can is inspiring to be honest. And everywhere she turns they are against her. But she doesnât quit.
The punishments are brutal and terrifying.
SANFORD
How Ms Smith can make me feel sexually attracted to a giant bug is beyond me but, the things I feel for this âmanâ are deep.
He is a bug with honour, patience and respect. A father with limitless love for his son and a lover with a ribbed penis (whoop!).
The story of what happened to him and all of his brethren in the last twenty years is nothing short of heartbreaking.
The pain and suffering that they have had to endure…I donât know about you but, Iâm imagining the Jewish people back during WW2, and I canât evenâŚ
SEX SCENES
There werenât many but when they did come together you felt the emotional connection right along with the characters. Some of the scenes were really amusing and some quite a turn on but, thatâs not what the book is about.
FINAL THOUGHTS on COTTONWOOD by R Lee Smith
I cried I laughed, I got a little turned on, I hoped, I agonised and I rejoiced, over and over throughout this book.
I felt things… lots of things and I thought about things that I would never have thought about before reading this story.
It is deep, dark and thought-provoking. I shall carry it in my heart for a very long time.
5 Stars